velvet-black:smeared-blue

where do i start

reach into the fuckin' stars

velvet-black:smeared-blue

i see me and look beyond 

for you

"yo son carabali

negro de nacion

sin la libertad

no  puedo vivir"

sounds so sweet though

not necessarily the origins

of me

i stumble through

the silken locks

i have craved

to sample love's sweet 

victory through bitterness

(the darkest sweet so far

as i can tell)

can't make believe 

i'm not living in hell

lab-caged rat i stumble

for the prize         or

rub my belly i lay down;

my ego circumsized

and this boy has to pee

all the time

blindless blitterings these words

stumble naked forth

from truths cold shoulder

ashes and the embers smolder

all that's left to tell my story true

all that's left when 

times i think of you

i sniff and snort bad 

things out of hate

and hatred's bed she

sleeps me well all day

and 

nothing

i  have left to say is

nothing left was here for me

nothing here was left for me

i am here to sing

your burden fast to

thinking sleep      to

calm the dragons in your 

mind just one last 

loving time-

one last farewell rhyme, or

this. which i give

to you,

ammonia-smelling crystal 

pine sol blue

amber first but stirred

with morning's mist

cry the burning tears that

are stirred by this

loveless

faithless

bullshit

harem tryst.

coming is more of this-

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